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Sunday, February 6, 2011

The Sharp Knife of A Short Life.

Hello, everyone.
Something devastating and tragic happened in my community 16 days ago.(January 21st)
A girl in my grade, by the name of Jasmine Abbott, was murdered.
By her mother.
Her mother killed her 2 other younger siblings, and herself. She even shot the family dog, but it lived.
She also burnt the house down before she killed herself.

Someone messaged me on facebook about it before the forwards started going around, but she gossips all the time and I didn't believe her.
Then, on my way to Subway, I got messages that said "RIP Jasmine, Amanda, Ryan and Katelynn." I just said "OH MY GOD JASMINE ABBOTT IS DEAD!!!!!!!!" I didn't cry. I just couldn't believe it. We heard the sirens and ambulances going through the town.
It felt like a dream. Jasmine was very popular, and nice. She was a beautiful girl, and loved by everyone. We had our fights, because we're both loud stubborn, but we got along this year.

This happened on a Friday. At school on Monday, it was very odd. Everyone was crying, of course. I still hadn't. Then when it came time for the morning announcements, there was a moment of silence in memory of Jasmine. That's when I got a little teary. Then they called all of the freshmen to the auditorium. There were counselors there and talked. Any person from our grade who wanted to go up there and talk could. I was bawling. And Mr. Plasse, my English teacher, didn't help. He went up there and read a poem he wrote about her.

The counselors stayed in the library all day, and if anyone just needed to go talk, they could. I didn't. We didn't do much work that day.
The next day was the viewing. The caskets were closed of course. There were tons and tons of people there. It was unbelievable. That night is when I broke down at home. I cried for 3 hours.
The next day was the funeral. I didn't cry there. There were still a lot of people there. It was a short service. They let out doves outside. It was cold. My heart was cold.

Watch this video if you want wouldn't embed on this post for some reason. But here's the link:

I felt so bad for Jasmine's boyfriend. He's a senior. At the viewing, he was there all day, and didn't leave Jasmine's casket. He just kept stroking his hand on the side of it. That night, he went to his basketball game. He did it for Jasmine, but of course, he didn't play the best he could.
After first period, every single day, I'd have to walk past Jasmine and her bf's locker(they shared a locker), and I was just so used to it. Now, it's just him. I see the picture of him and Jasmine taped to the inside of his locker.

It's crazy how something like this can bring a community together.
Have you ever heard the song, "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry? It brings a whole new meaning to me.
I don't think this lyric could be any more true:

"Funny how you're dead when people start listening."

I think we're still adjusting at school. It's hard, but we're coping. It still feels weird that she's gone. She always will be. I just wish I could give her a hug. I miss her.

Here are some pictures of her..we all agreed she had the most beautiful eyes.

My favorite. She was beautiful, wasn't she? :)

We all loved her crazy curly hair.

Jasmine and some of my other friends.

For some of my older followers(not meaning you're old, but you've been following my blog for a while), do you remember me posting this? Jasmine is on the left side, third person. I'm glad I have this picture. Everyone was in a rush and wanted to leave, but I said "WE'RE TAKING A FREAKING PICTURE!"

Now you all know why I haven't been posting.


Bleeding Healer said...

Oh this made me cry so much..I am so sorry for you so sorry..take care and blessing's to..I was going to say family...
Take care..
hugs to you..

Teresauras said...

What is probably the hardest thing to belive is that this is the second fresh post between today and yesterday including a young death. The video was very sad, too.

Talia said...

Oh my God. I am crying right now as I'm typing my comment. I am so so so sorry. You don't even know how sorry I am. I know exactly how you feel. EXACTLY. This year a boy in my grade committed suicide a few months ago and my life was like a mirror of yours. Don't worry, things will get better. I promise you they will. Things will eventually turn back to normal, even though right now its hard to believe so. You'll always be effected by this, and that is understandable. If you EVER need anyone to talk to you, I'm here for you all you have to do is email me at my I'm really sorry once again. Please know that my comment is sincere. Lots of love(with all of my heart).

Brookie said...

That must be so hard. This made me cry. I'm so, so, so sorry. Sincerely sorry. Things will get better in a matter of time. She's in heaven, and shes happy. And soon, you will be too. Sorry for this pointless comment, but that's all I could say. Just remember everything will turn out okay. With the rain, there always comes a rainbow :)

John McElveen said...

I am sooo sorry for your loss- and the trauma of having to deal with that!

I pray you find some Peace!!!


John McElveen said...

I am sooo sorry for your loss- and the trauma of having to deal with that!

I pray you find some Peace!!!


Gabrielle said...

Aww that's horrible. I'm so sorry Abby. She was beautiful, but now she's in a better place. Its weird how we on earth mourn the deaths of the people we love, but when you think about it we should just be happy for them. No more suffering, no more pain, just peace and paradise.


Kindros said...

Sorry for your loss. It is always tough losing someone. Something like this just happened in this area as well. Makes you wonder how the world got so messed up.

Suyinsays said...

abby, i don't really know what to say. but i can offer that i've been in a similar situation, where someone close to me has died at the hands of someone else, so all i can tell you is that i love you (but you already know that) and that no matter how you may feel now, it will get better <3

↘Cassidy↙ said...

omigosh, that's so horribly sad. why would her mom do such a crazy and terrible thing? i feel so sorry for, gosh, anyone in their family, and her friends, too. i'm so sorry for all you guys. :( :(

↘Cassidy↙ said...

this reminds me of something that's going on over here right now. anthony, pizza boy, whatever you want to call him, he's talking about commiting suicide. we've been praying for him. why does death always seem like the best answer? it's so confusing.

Jade said...

oh my god. this is awful. and she was such a beautiful girl, and looked genuinely nice. i just can't wrap my mind around it; killing not only yourself, but your own children too. i can't believe you have to deal with this... you're such a sweet, nice person :`( i hope that you and your friends are doing okay with this, and that hopefully, you find peace and forgiveness with your loss. i don't blame you for not blogging- that's big.
if you ever need to talk, leave me a comment on my blog, and i'll be willing to listen :) you should talk about it. better than keeping things inside.
<3 <3 <3

Devin said...

That is so, so sad. Unfortunately I've experienced the loss of a friend and I know how much it hurts. It must be so bad for her remaining family and her boyfriend. I watched the video and it made me teary even though I didn't know her. God will guide you through this and you know Jasmine is in a better place. That song is so sad, but one of my favorites. It just reminds me to live my life to the fullest not only for me, but for my friend who passed on who never got the chance. Everytime I get to a big point in life I always think of her and how she will never get to experience Prom, graduation, etc. and how I should be extremely thankful for these oppurtunities.

Francesca said...

Abby, I am so sorry that this happened. Things like this just aren't right... I feel like death is everywhere right now. A girl in my town just commit suicide, and it's terrible. Jasmine looked like such a nice girl, and you're right, her eyes were absolutely gorgeous. I hope you're doing alright.

Shay said...

I am so sorry1 It's so sad how things could happen like that, I am truly sorry for you and everyone who knew her. I am so sorry I'm crying while writing this comment. I'm just so sorry!

Ruth said...

Ow, this is so sad. Something similar happened in our town last summer and it's just so sad I don't know what to say about it.

Take care,

tywo said...

Abby dear, this is very sad. I'm sorry. I'm praying for you, and all the other people that she ever related to. May God be with you all.
All my love.


ЯANdOM ЯAWR said...

Oh my goodness when I started to read this I couldn't believe it. I feel so sorry for everyone affected by the deaths :'( It's horrible! OMGosh I'm quite speechless.

Gabrielle said...

Happy Blogoversary!

<3 <3

Sally said...

Oh my goodness, this is just some of the most awful news! It's shocking how someone could be that cruel to her own family and herself.

I really like your blog though and will be returning!

↘Cassidy↙ said...

i'm nominating you for blogfest. you're in the one-hundred followers and above catagory. :)

Emma said...

Oh my god, this is so sad.
The video is beautiful though.
I hope you'll be okay, Abby xx

Jade said...

hey, abby. i really do hope you're feeling a little better about this. because you haven't blogged in awhile, and also because it's hard.
i'm praying for you and your friend <3 100th post is coming up, and it would be amazing if i had everyone comment and read it :) if there's anything you'd like for me to post, i could use all the help i can get. thanks!

Brookie said...

Happy belated blogoversary :)

Romi said...

That's just awful, I'm so so sorry

Romi said...

It must have taken you a lot to write about it, but it will make you feel better, letting everything out.

ツ♥Maly™♥ said...

So I told you I love you right?

Er yeah you tell me all the time, she thinks

I'm sooo sorry about your friend babe and I love you so much Xx.

Hannah said...

Oh, God, Abby. That's terrible and completely shocking. Her mom? You hear about stuff like this happening all the time, but you never actually think it'll happen to you or someone you know. I agree, she was very beautiful. Her eyes were truly stunning. A classmate of mine died when I was in 5th grade (she was choked by a swing set). I think she was new and we'd only spoken a couple of times before her death, so I have no idea what you're going through losing a close friend. Her boyfriend's so sweet. I hope you all are okay. If you ever need to talk or anything, just know I'm here.

Bree said...

oh my gosh. I'm so sorry. this is really tragic. it made me very sad. I'm so sorry.

I don't know how a mother can do that.

I hope you feel better. I'm praying for her.

RIP to her. she was very beautiful.

maggeygrace said...

Oh. My. God.

This was so hard to read. I'm so sorry for her. This is the kind of thing you don't dream can ACTUALLY happen. Especially to anyone you know or to you. This is so scary and horrible and it shouldn't be true. I'm so sorry, Abby. People are going to tell you a lot of things, Abby, through all of this about time healing everything and staying strong, but if I have anything to tell you, it's to let whatever you're feeling out in any way you can. Talk. Or paint. Or draw. or write. Don't hold it in, it's too hard.


Fashionably Bruised said...

im really sorry!! im new at the whole blog thing but i'm glad i found you, my best friend died in a car accident a year ago and i understand exactly how you feel. I completely agree with maggie do anything that expresses what you feel, i used to write him poems or letters i still do actually it helps alot. I know how hard it is so im here if you need anything.

*this daisy said...

Oh, Abby. I'm so, so sorry to hear about your darling friend. It's such a tragedy and I can't even begin imagine the pain your community must feel.

I hope you're feeling a little better already. *big huggs* <3

Carol said...

I am so sorry for your loss. It's actually pretty hard for me to cry too. Not because I don't care but perhaps because I am still processing my emotions. And then there are moments where I would suddenly just drop a tear or two. Like now.